when and how to be in a relationship

this is something that i am not good at, haven't had much practice and find myself contemplating more often then i would like

i guess dwelling on things in general is what happens when your life is not whole consumed with work

how do you know what a relationship is because they are all different- there isn't one answer

i have gotten to the point that i am who i am and i am totally comfortable with what that all entails- my life of moving around a bit, my friends scattered to the winds- really only a phone
call away, a career that will be a process in the making and a great family support system with a few dings in the side.......

this is all good

however, i have come to the realization that this is me, by myself and i have never really had to be me with someone else for a prolonged period of time and it makes me wonder who and how i will be with someone else......

i think this is what scares or scars me (pick your word) when the big "R" word comes to mind....i think in a way i am shooting myself in the foot before i get the chance to go for the walk.