i thought......

so i have talked before about how much time i spend in my car......
but someone asked me the other day what i did during those long commutes and besides answering the obvious...drive! (i actually sometimes have something to eat-bad fast food or make phone calls-with hands free safety ear piece)

i quickly told them that the drive(sometimes 2 hours) gives me time to think. an answer that seemed amuse them and a statement to the effect that "i must have the clearest mind ever" slipped out and the conversation was done between us...but i was not done thinking to myself about all the things that i do think about when i drive.

i tend to write a lot of them down in this little not so private journal, but reserve my more personal thoughts for myself (yes, you can thank me for that). but i thought to keep track today of all the things that crossed my mind as i made the long commute once again.

in no particular order of occurance or importance:

i thought about the last boy that i kissed (far too long ago)
i thought about my move to california and tried to decided if it was better to leave my stuff in storage here or in florida (still undecided)
i thought about my bills that i have to pay (still not paid as i write this)
i thought about my move to this town about 2 years ago and how i have great friends here that came to my former apartment in jersey city and helped move me out
i thought how hard it will be to ever find two ladies as great as my adopted family here (aletta and karla...i am talking about you!)
i thought about how my mom was always confused as to why, as a child, i would prefer to take pictures of things, not people (and now i am in a job that explains that all)
i thought about a boy that i would like to kiss
i thought about whether or not i want to have kids some day
i thought about the fittings that i have to do this week
i thought about my two dads that passed away
i thought about going to brazil and alaska in the near future
i thought about my juneau journal pal and wished that i could hear her voice and see how she is

i thought and i thought and i thought.....somehow i don't really see how this is bringing me to a state of "clear mindedness".....i think it is just giving me the alone time with myself to be able to process all that is going on in my life. my wish is that everyone could have this time to themselves. it doesn't give you any answers, it just lets you ponder the questions while the scenery passes you by.